Yet again, I have taken a hiatus in reading/writing on my blog. It’s been an incredibly rough couple of months for a variety of reasons; and my inspiration/drive/emotional capacity to visit WordPress has been low.
Today, I am going out for Halloween. This is significant for me for a few reasons. One is simply the fact that in the past couple of months, I have rarely gotten out at all – besides going to work. I have been battling a little bit of depression, or something, and I just haven’t felt the desire to do much. Also, I recently made the choice to stop hanging out with the man I had been spending some time with. So, I’m going out solo (yikes).
The party I am going to is sort of like an early Day of the Dead Celebration. I’m going to write a letter to J, and try to find a memento that I can bring as well -as they are having an alter to leave things for your loved ones who have died. I’m hoping, that in some way, this will be healing for me. The nightmares have come back, the sadness and loneliness, and I feel like I need something to help me out. I’m just hoping that it doesn’t cause MORE anxiety, and more difficult feelings instead.
Happy Halloween everyone.